It's me.. The only me..

F*ck off?!

2006-05-24T19:10:00.000+08:00

This day? Hm.. it's good.. dami kong new friends. And it makes my day so great. But, there's this girl (i won't tell her naman) who really pisses me off. Dating niligawan ni boyfriend bago siya nakipag balikan sakin. Yun ba pinag mamalaki niya? yung panliligaw ni boyfriend sakanya? Sheesh. I don't even care about that. Kasi past naman na yun eh. What's important is that kung sino ang girlfriend niya ngaun. Right? And kung sinong MAHAL niya NGAUN. Nakakainis talaga siya!

my message for that b*tch (if ever na binabasa mo 'to): yeah right.. niligawan ka nga neia.. but u know what? sabi sakin ni boyfriend.. PANAKIP BUTAS ka lang niya SAKIN... kasi hindi niya matangap na wala na kami.. so see? sinung panalo? of course it's me.. coz' he loves me more than he does to you. (he din't love you nga pala noh? kasi panakip butas ka lang?) So wag mo na ipag malaki sakin na niligawan ka neia? Ok? So u betta look foe anotha boy to flirt! Not mine! Meron na ngang may ari, inaagaw mo pa! Ayoko sanang mag sabi ng masama tunkol sayo.. pero masyado na kong napipilitan eh.. sumosobra ka na kasi.. Respeto naman sana.. im older than you pa naman!

Hm..?

2006-05-23T18:58:00.000+08:00

Hm... maybe your wondering if hu's that guy in the pic... so nyweiiz, that's CJ... Wala lang.. Feel ko lang ilaga pic nia.. miss ko na talaga xia.. Ang boring ngaun, he he. Wala nga nangyari na something different. Yun nga lang, parang i stopped thining of CJ na. Ha ha, it's been months na since nung nagbreak kami. Tagal na pala, almost 1 year na, 9 months to be exact. Oh, i miss him so much. I'd realize na, siguro nga, i really need to move on na?! 9 months na kaming hiwalay eh, so it's not impossible na, *sigh* my iba na xiang chiq. Nakakapanibago nga eh, hindi ko nakatext mga boyfriends ko. Neither one of 'em txted me. I don't care. Ha ha, wala lang.

Dream about him...

2006-05-22T18:10:00.000+08:00

Sorry, nawalan po kasi ako ng time para mag update eh. So anyways, from last week Tuesday to Thursday. nagka colds and fever ako. Grabe nga eh, nag stay lang ako sa bahay, and i can't do anything but to sleep. I even dream about CJ.. Grabe talaga, ang weird, he wants me back (i'm talking about my dream), and then i even said to him, "Kung iiwan mo rin lang ako, wag na lang."

Ha ha, i don't know if i can do that in real life. Akala ko totoo na talaga, and as i try to reach his hand, guess what? I fel from bed.

Panu kaya ako makaka move on from the past?

Actually, naka move on na ako, pero yung move on na kaya kong mabuhay ng wala siya, pero hindi ko kayang mawala yung pain na nafi-feel ko pag naalala ko siya. Nakakainis nga eh, i miss him so much.

Balita ngaun ng mga classmates ko, he has a plan of coming back to our school, [nag tranfer kasi siya nung 3rd quarter] But unfortunately, my parents plans to tranfer me into a better school.

my post for yesterday [May 21, 2006]

Hinatid namin si lola sa bus terminal, it was raining so hard. But it's ok, Mama Lola [that's how i call my grannie.] gave a box of Jelly beans before going, ha ha, that's one of my favorite food. It's cute kase eh, so colorful pa. And then me and my kuya went to the mall, sinamahan ko siya mag shopping,isn't that sweet? Ha ha, that's how close we are. And then, after shoping, we passed by the church to pray.

I prayed for my personal intention, i wished that someday, my crayons would come back. Ha ha, not literally, i mean, i asked him to bring back CJ into my life. Honeslty, since the day he left, it's like, nawalan na ng kulay buhay ko, it became boring and full of burdens. I don't know why, pero nag iba na talaga nung nawala siya. Hay, i cant do anything anyways. So i'd better move on. Right

2006-05-14T17:44:00.000+08:00

I woke up very early this morning.. With the wind hushing madly.. Skies shouting so loudly and with clouds crying sorrowly.. 'may bagyo ba?' that's the first thing that i have asked my mom for this day.. Then suddenly as i check upon my phone.. I immediately saw that there are 18 messages.. Wow.. how come that these people are so early to wake up..? Im really not used to wake up so early.. "Kaninong number naman keia toh?" i asked my brother... then he said.. "baket? anung sabe?".. "basta.." i answered childlishly.. sa totoo lang.. un message.. it says.. "can i have you back?".. Nagtataka talaga ako kung kanino galing un? tingin neio? Kagabe kase.. i cried.. ha ha.. coz i miss a person who has been the biggest part of my life.. saklap no? U know hu i was thinking if hu's the one hu sent me this message? its CJ.. i miss him so much.. ha ha... enough for that.. anyways.. when i checked out if what time was that message sent to me.. it was 2:39am.. huh? but how come i did'nt hear my phone ring? I tried to ask that number.. but until now.. i haven't heard something from "him".. Kaninong number keia un? how i wish that it was from "him".. :(